It’s hard to believe that it’s October. The days have started to get chillier, and I’m already anticipating pulling out my sweater collection. September was a bit of a rough month for me, as I struggled to find balance and wasn’t able to work on my revisions much, if at all. I had a big panic moment when I questioned whether or not I’d be able to balance classes, college apps, and participating in Pitch Wars. I was worried that I wasn’t going to be able to give 100% to such an incredible opportunity and that I’d fall behind. Luckily, I shared my concerns with my mentor and her response was the peptalk that I needed. Since then, I’ve been doing better at balancing all of my priorities and feel satisfied with how things are going at the moment. I realized that the biggest thing I needed to give myself is patience.
I’m a big “go, go, go” person. I love creating checklists and checking things off of said list. I actually like being busy, as long as I’m doing something that I find worthwhile. I realized that another reason that my revisions stalled last month was because of sheer exhaustion. By the time I came home, ate, showered, did homework, and studied, I was too tired to do revisions. I didn’t have the mental energy that they demanded, and I didn’t want to do them halfway. Sometimes I let my tiredness be an excuse, and I realized that if I was going to participate in Pitch Wars and if I was going to finish these revisions I needed to show up.
I thrive on deadlines, but my deadline to have completed my current round of revisions by the end of September was unrealistic, though I didn’t realize it at the time. So when the end of September flew past and I’d only made a small dent in my revisions, I was pretty disappointed. For October, I’ve set myself the goal of revising for 3 out of the 5 school nights for 30 min, plus the weekends. Setting the goal of just 3 school days instead of 5 gives me the flexibility that I need and reduces some of the pressure that I often put on myself. So far, I’ve been sticking to that daily goal, and my productivity with my revisions has skyrocketed. Showing up is truly half the battle.
Another aspect of life that I’ve been reflecting on recently is the number of changes that are on the horizon and the closeness of the unknown. Tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and I realized that it’s the last birthday that I may be spending with my family for a while (depending on where I end up going to college, I guess). And that hit me hard. Who knows where or with whom I’ll be spending my 19th birthday with, and that’s both scary and exciting. Pitch Wars is the same way! It begins on Friday, and I have no idea what to expect. I’ve heard nothing but amazing things about the experience from past mentees and mentors, and now I know that my mentor is great and believes in me and my story. But Pitch Wars has the capacity to be such a life-changing experience, and that’s both scary and exciting. The unknown is so very close.
Right now, I’m on part 4 of my 7 part revision plan. Considering I was only halfway through part 1 when October started, I’m very happy with my progress. I also didn’t think I would be doing much reading, with everything else going on, but I guess I played myself because I’m currently reading an arc of You Asked for Perfect by Laura Silverman. It’s about a senior struggling through calc and trying to get through senior year without messing up so he can become valedictorian. (HUGE MOOD!!!!) There’s ownvoices Jewish rep and bisexual rep, though I’m not sure if it’s ownvoices. I’m about a quarter through, and so far I’m really enjoying it. I don’t know when I’ll finish reading it, but whenever I do there’ll definitely be a review.
I guess my next update will be during the first week of Pitch Wars!! I’m so incredibly excited, like it’s hard to explain. For those of you who are in school, or are just juggling a lot of things in general, I’m rooting for you!
Happy reading, happy writing, and happy blogging!